Panic Overwhelming

Last year, I did a one mile swim for the Red Cross. I think it was two kilometers or more in reality since I strayed off course. That was quite a Herculean feat, as you could probably imagine. And my fear almost overwhelmed to the point that I almost didn't even try. But, conquer my fears, I did. I simply jumped off the boat and forced myself to swim all the way to shore in three, long hours!

Well, now, panic and fear are overwhelming me again. This time, I think they just might win. I have this paper due in just two more days. I honestly don't think I'll get it done on time. Aside from the fact that my hard drive crashed on me last Friday afternoon and then finally died its rather untimely death (therefore no file whatsoever could be retrieved), I seriously don't know how to go about finishing that paper. . . . (SIGH.) Actually, I do know how to do the parts that would make up the paper. It's just that I think I'm getting overwhelmed just by realizing the enormity of the overall task.

I went online to download a few more files I needed for it. . . . Now, here I find myself blogging. . . . I think I need the diversion and the few minutes to just air out my thoughts. . . . Blogging really is therapeutic!

I gotta go.  . . . Another sign of panic? I just can't focus on anything right now.

Do whisper a prayer for me, ok? THANK YOU!